Special Event With Frens

move into July,something going to change
which like my frens and my relationships

at 5th July,we have a BBQ event at Belina's house
start from 7.30pm to 10.30pm
as long as 3 hours
we make many joke and many thing during the event
till the end of event ,we still dun wan to go back home
*frens include Zack,Kok,Jie Yan,Chee Hang,Woo,Poi Yee,
Angeline,Yia Gee,Wilson,Ah Hin(and also Belina and i)

move forward to 13th July
we go to Aeon Rawang to watch a movie
the movie is title 'Pacific Rim'
as long as 2 hours 11min
is talk about Kaiju and Jaeger
(Kaiju : monstrous creatures;
 Jaeger : massive robots)
although the Kaiju is scaring me,
but is a nice movie which also set as P13
* frens include Zack,Kok,Jie Yan,Chee Hang,Ah Hin,
Kelvin,Belina(and also me)

i hope that special event will going on continuously
also for our relationships

although it is a short story from my life
but i still would like to say
please forgive me if got any mistaken
thanks for your kindness


AMITABHA!!!

A Special Day

14th June is a quite special day for me
because it is my 18th birthday
with smile going to school in the morning
fully hope my friends give me some surprise
although no like few years ago
i can receive a small small present from my friends gang
but i still will very happy although just a wish only

so that's why yesterday i done all my thing
and going to bed before 12am
because i have a birthday information in Facebook
so all my Facebook friends starting their wish after 12am
and i just start receive their wish after i come back from school
(just only Facebook part)

Catherine Tan Yee Sim is the 1st person to wish me
she is a close friend with me
she also know me well
next is Angeline Koh May Ann
whose is no heart on it
although already tell her on Monday
she still can forget it
after giving clew then she just release on it
never mind i forgive it because is my big day in year

when rest time in school
the SEMEKAR gang keep calling my name
from class outside till class inside
i getting blur why keep calling me
Qiak Qiak
they sing the birthday song to me and follow by Belina and Vinnie
(that time i still having my meal)
by seriously i quite touch on it with this surprise
the most special is Pei Wen ask me what i want as a present
can tell Wing Yee and she will collect the money from them
i just say nothing and if they really want to sent present to me
24th June still can resend the present to me
(cause that day is another birthday which follow chinese calender)
same thing i tell to Angeline too
before i get back my seat
Shereen suddenly come and shake my hand and wish me by quickly
(on that time teacher already getting start teaching)
of course that i receive it by shocking

actually i really not take mind on the birthday present
i just mind on my birthday's wish
whether can be true or not
i would not like say out what is my birthday's wish
not i scare it will no affect
just only want to keep as my small secret

end up everything on 12am soon
thanks for all of it
i will keep in my heart till i lost the memory
(actually i like others wish me but i don't like to wish others
 because i feel that is reminding them are getting older
 so sorry to say i will not wish you all when is your birthday
 but i will wish you on my heart silently
 hope you all can forgive me when you all get know on it)

although is my big and special day
i still would like to say
please forgive me if got any mistaken
thanks for your kindness


AMITABHA!!!

Last post in holiday

as long as two weeks holiday
don't know how my friend spend it well
for mine:different type life in this two week
on the 1st week,i spend it on my education
just only doing my revision and done my homework
after finish the 1st week,enter the 2nd week
HAHAHA!!!
in my to-do-list,i need to done another note revision and assignment
but i spend whole week in watching TV-program and sleeping only
so until now my to-do-list still having 2 things need to complete

8/6is a quite special day
because left few days then comes to dumpling festival
so my mom decide choose this day to prepare homemade dumpling
to prepare this kind delicious dumpling,
my mom took almost half day to complete the mission
when dinner time,we have it as our dinner meal
and also with a big cup of Chinese-tea
(the tea leaf i believe is bought from china when we have a family trip at there)

economic tuition time:
feeling bad,angry,sad,and also dissapointed
actually is quite happy when start tuition
but when all the juniors had their rest(going to washroom)
haiz~~
is already too noisy,we are getting hard to listen what teacher teaching
because the washroom is just behind our classroom
i don't know how others feeling
i just know that i am getting angry to go out and ask them to slow down their voice
they just only are PMR candidate,nothing big deal,okay?
but we all are STPM candidate and this paper result will effect our future
so in your opinion:which paper is more important to decide our future?
after tuition i going to wear back my lovely shoe
i feel something wrong on my shoe,but i didn't pay tension on it
after reach home and giving a check on it
OH MY GOD!!!
don't know who is braking my shoe???
although this shoe is cheap and buy at night market
but still is a nice shoe for me!!
Arghhhhhhhhh!!!hope the person can't score in the examination!

before i forget,i would like to say about my MUET assignment
for the assignment,i just only search some nice English song
and watched a classic movie - Titanic
when watching the movie,Oops
i crying silently because is too touching me
in case, i also search some English magazine although is already expired
i hope that this three ways can help me to improve my skills before taking MUET

that's all for the last post in this two weeks of school holiday
*please forgive me if the post have any mistakes,thanks for your kindnesses


AMITABHA!!!     

Oh No!!!

after i update my blogger for first post in English
i delete all the draft whether in web blogger or mobile blogger
but before i delete all the draft,i forget that has a post is edit from a draft
i using my mobile to delete it
when the system inform me that is delete failure,i think is nothing big deal
so i continue my deletion for second round
when i completed the deletion,i having a check for the blog
in the time just i realize that
i carelessly delete the quite important post
that post also quite meaningful and memorable
because it was my last post in Chinese language in this moment
i dun know whether i still got chance to post a Chinese language post or not

*please forgive me if the post has any mistakes,thanks for yours kindnesses


AMITABHA!!!

New Life Time Start!!!

8th of May is the day to start my another study life,
which is Form 6/Pre-U/STPM!
first of all sure that having 5 days orientation from counseling and upper 6 seniors
this year we don't have any outdoor activity except for the last day
we have short period for a program-amazing run to get know Pre-U's subject look like 
just only few station but we need to search whole school for the girls which tagged
i remembered that my group are wasting almost half hour at second station
that need to solve pengajian am question,
we all conclusion that is too hard to us because we have never learn before!!!

after the 5 days orientation,we still haven start our lesson
cause we as lower 6 student, we need to help for 2013 Teachers' Day preparation
busy for 2 days continuously:1 day is preparation, 1 day is formal party
coming to Friday which is 17th of May, just start our first day lesson
this day also a day before upper 6 taking their seminal 2's examination
this day is all my lesson teacher enter their class to explain
what they need in their class after it
i just remember that teacher non-stopping explain,ours little hand is non-stopping copy
after schooling,i can confirm that ours hand is getting hard pain,
especially our small finger

the first thing that we all need to do is visit the book shop
and buy the reference books that we need
2 oxford fajar brand+1 longman pearson brand
=3 reference books already cost my RM80++
is quite expensive,but for our own good,it is no choice
add on buy some other needed stationary,just i can say i already over my own budget
add more one bad news that i need to send my computer for repairing!!
(a small cold joke:others black-out for election,my computer also want black-out)
on that time,i already want to black-out(faint)

upper 6's examination week,although have 3 teachers are not around for their lesson
but still have MUET teacher and pengajian perniagaan teacher!!
MUET lesson is still okay for me,but for PP lesson,i just a word to say:rush/die
why i say like that just because teacher is teaching fast i cant get it stability
so what can i do is do my own note by taking from the book,
and try to copying the question given in 5 minutes,
done in home and pass it in the next day
this situation prolong till the end of examination week

the topic out of class lesson:-
this is a quite funny thing: happen at different day but happen in the same period-MUET
Monday-i feeling vomit after take the rest,i strongly hold the feeling long as half period,
              finally Angeline cant continue seeing i in that situation,
              she straight away pull me out and move forward to field to get some fresh air,
              after i feel some better then we continue our lesson which left
              (but i didn't heard in anything that teacher is explaining in front)
Tuesday-we are practice for MUET speaking part,suddenly Wing Yee
              (sorry that i dun know how name actually pronounce is)get tension
              just like my symptom before a few year,
              whole class are get shock include our teacher
              after few minutes relaxing,she getting better and not so tension
              final we inform her mom to take her meet a doctor for some healthy checking
              because she is first time have this situation
              (this case is take longer time than Monday's case,
              so very sorry cant explain all)
Wednesday-teacher feel some afraid that today is who's turn,so before start the lesson
                   she asking everyone are they all feeling good today,
                   until she confirm everyone is good and nothing will happen
                   then just she start that day lesson
*in this three day case,i already cut out some because i am getting forget actually what
  happen in this three day and this three are taking me more half an hour,
  is quite long story

**this is my first time write my blog in English,
    so please forgive that if have any mistakes
    THANK YOU FOR YOURS KINDNESSES!!!!!


AMITABHA!!!    

21放榜日

这天的存在可以说使得每个人的心情七上八下，小鹿乱撞
还记得我当天特地调个早闹钟，起个早床，可能早取成绩
怎知一拖再拖，托到快接近正午时才去学校拿成绩
带着冰冷的手脚，紧张的心情，快速的心跳挤进取成绩之地-电脑室
扑~扑扑~~扑扑扑~~~
到我拿成绩了~~
不过得先取证书文件方能取得成绩单
取了证书文件,老师便以反面式来把成绩单递到我手上
紧张~紧张了~~
眯着眼慢慢翻开成绩单
哈？！这真的是我的成绩吗？？？
与我之前所立下的目标差了一截
不是比目标好而刚好相反比目标差！！

原定目标：3/5As及全科credit
所得成绩：2As及8科credit而已
失望极了~唯一能安慰自己的是
没有不及格的，
科学如愿获A,兑现了与老师的承诺，也不妄我的参考书脱皮又脱骨的
有几科也比在预试中获得更好的成绩
会计也出乎预料获A，没砸了老师的招牌
唯可惜的是没能见到科学老师，与她分享如愿获佳绩的快乐

取得了成绩单便到处问朋友的成绩，
不问还好，一问就死得了~~
个个都获佳绩，眉开眼笑的
(但也有明明就很好成绩却拼名地说成绩不好的人，
难道他们不懂会伤了成绩差的人的心吗???)
也绕了很久了，是时候回家及向有关人士汇报成绩
一一汇报后，便得开始想接下来的路要怎样走了
大学的foundation呢？还是学院的diploma呢？又或者是学校的Pre-U呢？
还真伤我脑筋兼死不少脑细胞啊~
考虑了好几天便有了决定，
说好听点就是给多自己2年时间»
说不好听的就是无路可去»
选择学校的Pre-U咯

不过最近在社交网站-面子书
看到许多佳绩生因不知如何选择，
而想就读学校的Pre-U
这犹如一个炸弹，炸地我遍体鳞伤
若每个佳绩生都回去读Pre-U的话
那我不就是唯一个机会都快灰飞烟灭？！

老天！！您就别将捉弄我了！！！
我受不了这种打击的！！！！


南无阿弥陀佛！

胡言乱语

属于自己的网站叫部落格；属于网站的文章叫博客
每个人的想法都不一样，
在我的想法里：每个人都应该有个部落格，因为不是每样事件都能与人分享，
在部落格里，你能尽情发挥你那“不为人知”的写作能力，一切你“不为人知”的秘密等等
所以在我的部落格里，你会发现到“不为人知”的我
若你时常看我的部落格，你必然会发现一篇比一篇长的博客

一年一度的越野赛跑已经开跑，
不用想也知道，身为学校的一份子能光明正大地偷闲--不必上课！
所以我才开档不久就看到一班班的十六生穿着运动衣来逛街~
除此以外，我还看到明明学校就离此地超远的诗佳老师！
其中一个来光顾我时，我们都吓到对方了呢~
我很佩服那个来光顾我的老师，因为她稀然记得我现在是在等大马教育文凭的成绩
好感动哦~他还问我有想念在学校求学的日子吗？
我不否认是有一点点想念啦！
（以前老师说以后当我（们）离开学校了，一定很会想念做学生在学校读书的日子！）
偏偏在当学生时却很固执地否认，很嘴硬地说：一定不会！
结果？事实胜于雄辩啊！

做了8小时的功+1小时的午休=20单生意（哇！$$哦！）
比起上一次，的的确确有了很大的差异，
交班盘算的时候，我跟我的同事都下了一跳，因为扣了底钱的差距依然是几倍之差
不可思议！真是不可思议！这种似像奇迹的事竟然会发生在我身上？真太不可思议了！
有种像以前在学校做会计作业，在最后答案拿到平衡及正确答案一样的兴奋
所以趁机偷溜到购物广场，购买些“礼物”送给自己，当作是种慰劳及打赏
更没想到，我偷溜走的时候，购走了6单生意，是个意外惊喜！
（寸步不离的时候又不见得有客来，非要人不在才来给人购物！这是什么道理吗？）
*黯然发现有点力不透支，疲惫不堪

做完工，回家晚餐，洗澡，听歌，
渐渐地人就轻松下来，慢慢的就会想入眠了~
唯我独知：入眠后的三小时，我便会慢慢清醒而难以再梦周公！
那时的我只好在床上辗转难眠，来个纯浓版的失眠记！
第二天就会与“狗窝”难分难舍了~再不然就会.......
在特定时间再度与它难分难舍，而在这时候就会有首首美妙的歌曲的陪伴
这...这...这就更难与它分离啦！有时候还会牺午餐取“狗窝”呢！
就纯粹想‘补眠’~你相信吗？
不理你是信还是不信，这就是我的生活作息，超“健康”的~

看来这篇胡言乱语定不会比前个博客还来得长~
因我只是纯粹想写这一天是那么的充实，充满着意义，可以说难以忘怀的一刻~
*要写好一篇博客，除了文笔要够好，时间也要够充实来发挥这才能！
（没指名道姓，玩针对，所以请别对号入座，谢谢。）


南无阿弥陀佛！

奇怪？

一向向往能一整天都呆在家里，呆在房里与电脑共同进退的我，
居然觉得这是一件超闷的差事？！
严格来说：一整天呆在房里，只是单纯的上网，听歌，没有“煲”连续剧，是真的很闷得！
可能偶尔几次是不错，是会很享受这生活习惯~
可一旦这长期过着这生活，就会觉得这打根儿就是跟自己过不去~
不但是在浪费“黄金”，而且还会不知觉地觉得自己做了不知什么鬼的怪决定！
也难怪以前听人说：考完大马教育文凭后的几个月，
最好找份临时工来做，或者比别人早开始大学学院的读书生活，好来消磨“黄金”
我就是见闷了，所以找了份临时工来做，
虽是一星期才做那一天，可至少没有那么浪费“黄金”啦~
也总好过那些又不去找临时工来做又浪费$$作些不等用的人，对不对？
这是我想法罢了，其他人的想法，我管不了~

前阵子，我的上头给我拨了个电话
说下星期的工作时间有更动：星三改去星一
幸运的是：原本下星一要去医院复诊的，可收到院方通知，改到三月才复诊
要不然就不能去做工啦~嘿嘿
所说已非无业游民，可是非工作日时真的会不懂要作些什么好？
无聊到爆！！！（若工作时间没客的话，会无聊+闷到“钓鱼”）
所以我决定下次做工，定带些解闷物去！
要不然要怎样撑过九个小时？（加班的话就变十三个小时啦）

离星五还有几十个小时，我还没有选独奏曲！！
真是要死噢！好像没给人骂过酱！
给他知道还得了的？！也理不了怎么多~
等我有心了，认认真真地慢慢选吧！
这首可不能说笑的独奏曲啊！
要找到一首自己能力范围以内的，要长达两分钟的独奏曲，要去哪里找？？

一个头两个大！！
选个独奏曲已够我烦了，又加上要申请进学院进修的东西，再加考车牌的东西
啊！！！！！！！！！烦死我了！！！！
作什么我会有怎么多东西要烦的啊？？我是不是傻了啊？
明明就一大堆“黄金”在那边，又不用？在那边浪费！没了才来在那边“哔哩叭啦”的！
这就是：有嘴讲人却没嘴讲自己！！讲别人在那边浪费“黄金”，自己叻？
自己拿来犯贱的事！就不要姓赖地酱来赖在别人身上！（打个比方，没恶意）

《感恩的心》不知你有听过与否？也不知是听谁的演绎版本？
在写这篇文章的时候就无意间地发现了这首歌，是铁肺王子-杨培安的版本
当中的几句歌词，情景都满符合我有时候的心情的~
杨培安那高昂的音嗓，在副歌的部分更是深深牵动着我的心~
还记得第一次听到这首歌是在他/她的毕业典礼上，那时候的我也是乎是泪洒满眶~
“......天地虽宽这条路却难走，我看遍这人间坎坷辛苦......"
这是其中两句，对我来说是有满大意义在内，不知你又会如何了解这两句歌词呢？

奇怪！真是够奇怪！
两字主题却带来这般长的文章~这...到底是奇怪还是我厉害啊？
管它的！只要都是我的心情之言就好了~
（当中有得罪的话，敬请原谅）


南无阿弥陀佛！

七言八语

曾经有人说过：长期以不对的方式去做一件事，长久以后就会变成个坏习惯
这句话说得一点也没错！
自从考完大马教育文凭，我真的没有那天是不过1点不睡得
天天熬夜，天天日上三竿才睡醒
可说是：要睡不能睡，不想睡却偏偏睡！
可说是自己拿来的犯贱！
无论是自个儿的睡眠，还是我的阮咸技术，都养成了难以改掉的坏习惯！

可能已经起了个念头，就想慢慢的放弃
也开始慢慢地抗拒那些外来因素，
打个比方说：华乐团
由于今年8月有个《乐浪》2013全国独奏公开赛，
他便挑明地说：全体（弹拨组）都要参加，下礼拜给我（她）演奏曲目
说真啦，我真的没那个兴趣跟时间去参加那个比赛
我也十分清楚我不会在乐团很久时间
当中有什么技术试，沙巴义演等等
深信这我都不会去参与
我也不必刻意去解释当中的原因

学院？大学？
旅游系？师训系？
用科系选学校？用学校选科系？
不知道！不知道！我真的不知道！！
目前目标：读拉曼学院，修旅游系
修完出来就什么业？旅游计划负责人？
这些都可以慢慢计划~
可是没有人能支持我的决定，我又有什么信心继续走这条我想走的未来路了？
当中的利益，我又要如何取舍呢？
有时候这些利益对某些人说都不是什么问题
可对我来说，我必须取舍这种利益
可说这些事情是永远都轮不到我来做下一步决定的

那天我回到我刚离开不久的母校
别无它因，纯粹是回去看看佛学会的学弟妹及他们主持会议的方式
不错，出席会议的人数都不少，而且大家都很尊重大家，会议主持得很融洽
虽然会议中有发生了小小的不愉快
可身为今年的主席也不是个省油的灯，马上就责骂他们的不专心
身为学姐的我，给他们训话时，也留了一点面给老师，训得不太凶
我只是希望我所训的话，是帮学会维持学会该有的纪律，
也不是要针对学会中的某位学弟妹的

这篇七言八语可以说是我最近最烦人的心事
无论是有心还是无意，仍望都不要在意，放在心上有个刺~


南无阿弥陀佛！

感言

到了2013，能说每天都有不一样的感觉，感受。
希望能一一陈述这一切~
就从今天回到过去

虽说是迟醒，可仍有抽时间练习
2点左右就开始练到5，6点左右
不是要说什么，我的手练到手震，
我才不继续练下去，
这礼拜下来是有什么时候是没碰琴的？
挫败感已经出现料，
不为什么，只为了想追回以前的程度跟老师的要求！
我明白我是怎样的一个人，
可是苦苦相逼的后果，可又想过吗？
又有想过每个人的承受能力有这样高吗？
别跟我说什么：只要你肯下苦功，一定有收获之类的
在过去的n年里，我听得不少，也必定不比某多！
我只知道：那时候的我是快要疯了！！

也没什么人懂，真正的去了解！
我为什么怎么多问题（question/problem）？
你以为这是我想要得吗？
每每面对时，我有多痛苦，有谁能体会？
人人都会说：橡皮圈拉紧了就容易断！
道理人人都会说，可是不是人人都明白当中的道理？
我可以说是慢慢了解当中的道理了：
两年前，我就像一根拉的超紧的橡皮圈，
突然说放松，没想到就出事了~
（这事也不方便在这里透露，抱歉！）
身体好的人是永远不能体会到身体不好的人的辛酸~

2013才第二个礼拜而已，
我已经不习惯这种日子了，何况还得过多3个月左右？
除了期待3月的成绩出炉，就是在考取车牌了
过了这两个的期待，剩下的日子又要怎样过呢？
讲到考车，有了车牌，都不懂有没有车给我驾？

前些日子的冲动就在那两个小时半消失了~
不见就去找回来
说易做难的道理谁不懂？！
好不容易建立的信念，就这样被摧毁了
换成是你，你又会有什么感受？

*看来日后的感言片会陆续增加~就先写到这儿吧！


南无阿弥陀佛！